Hello all! This is just a quick post to share a positive moment I had last week while working as well as some quick updates. It was truly the only time I have actually felt some sort of joy in this job and I wanted to share it with you all.
I had a Spanish-speaking patient gravida 3, para 1 with complaints of bleeding and abdominal cramping. The baby ended up being fine, but I just had the best time taking care of this patient. Why? The doctor also spoke Spanish. Although my Spanish has a long way to go I really enjoyed hooking the patient up and assessing vitals, pulling labs, etc. while the doctor assessed. It was also awesome taking a verabl plan from the doctor in Spanish. Even though the patient seemed to think the doctor was performing all of the care and did not really appreciate me, I actually enjoyed it. I was really grateful to be able to understand the patient and provide seamless care with a bilingual provider. I feel like a crappy nurse most days and this gave me a teeny bit of hope. Maybe I should be a Hispanic population nurse haha! Anyway the last day of classes was today, I go back to night shift this Sunday (woo hoo!), and I have six weeks left of nurse residency. Then I am completely on my own. I am so nervous and the thought of it makes me nauseous. I have so many loose ends to try and tie up and my imposter syndrome seems to get in the way. I just feel like I am moving slow.
If anyone actually reads this blog and read my last post you would know I was reported by my preceptor to a charge nurse who reported to my residency manager that I do not seem happy there. My radar is already up and this just made it worse. One of my biggest pet peeves of nursing is the caddiness and drama. I have very little patience for drama queens and all the back-biting that goes on. I feel like I am wasting my life. I hate this place and I am tired of crying at home.
I still feel like nursing is a scam and I walked wide-eyed right into it. No one appreciates what you do and the doctor gets praised for your work. You leave work feeling like gum on the bottom of someone’s shoe and the pay SUCKS as well… I don’t know if I can do this forever, but for now I have no choice until I have a better plan in sight.
Anyway onto the next shift…
Thanks for reading,