Hello all! Some time has passed since I have posted a life update. I decided to provide a quick life update. If you are interested, keep reading!
This post is not sponsored. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
SEVEN MONTHS AS A NURSE.
Yep… I am halfway towards my first nurse birthday. Time has flown by and I feel like I just left orientation yesterday. I still feel like I don’t know anything and my confidence as a nurse is struggling. I honestly am so tired of people telling me how small I am… My schedule begining in March does look a little bit better, so I am interested to see how I feel on a decent schedule.
My contract is over December 1, 2022. This may sound far away, but before I know it that time will be here quickly. At this point I would like to work in both an Adult and Pediatric ER, but that doesn’t seem possible with my current management.
My mind wanders back to my non-profit jobs with kiddos during high school and when I was able to volunteer at my Children’s hospital. It makes me very sad because I feel like those were the only things I was semi-decent at in life. I also have lost my confidence in my ability to snag a Pediatric job. I also cannot shake the feeling that I am meant to do “something more” and that I have not reached my purpose in life. I have played with the idea of PA School, Law School, Doctorate of Research, but nothing seems to fit… For the time being I am just trying to be still, learn and grow as an ER nurse until I find out what that is.
I am trying to tackle boredom. I am becoming very antsy and I am tired of my hometown. I really wish I could see or just be someplace different for a little bit. Unfourtunately, with COVID I have been really cautious and decided to just save in the hopes I’ll be able to travel one day. I have been keepng myself busy with the gym (five days a week), reviewing basic nursing content (once a week for an hour) and brushing up on my language skills (twice a week for an hour each).
I am really trying my best to stay busy, but my mind is idle which really affects my mental health. I’m not sure, I guess I’ll just blame it on COVID. That is what I miss about being in college. I was always busy and I felt productive. I still am not able to return to being a Child Life volunteer which usually keeps me busy, but becasue of the ‘VID I can’t…
That is pretty much a life update. I don’t have much going on, but this is just snapshot of where my mind is right now. 2021 has been off to a hopeless start, but I am just trying to push through like most people. Thanks for reading!