Hello all! Some time has passed since I have posted a life update. I decided to provide a quick life update. If you are interested, keep reading!

This post is not sponsored. All thoughts and opinions are my own.


Yep… I am halfway towards my first nurse birthday. Time has flown by and I feel like I just left orientation yesterday. I still feel like I don’t know anything and my confidence as a nurse is struggling. I honestly am so tired of people telling me how small I am… My schedule begining in March does look a little bit better, so I am interested to see how I feel on a decent schedule.


My contract is over December 1, 2022. This may sound far away, but before I know it that time will be here quickly. At this point I would like to work in both an Adult and Pediatric ER, but that doesn’t seem possible with my current management.

My mind wanders back to my non-profit jobs with kiddos during high school and when I was able to volunteer at my Children’s hospital. It makes me very sad because I feel like those were the only things I was semi-decent at in life. I also have lost my confidence in my ability to snag a Pediatric job. I also cannot shake the feeling that I am meant to do “something more” and that I have not reached my purpose in life. I have played with the idea of PA School, Law School, Doctorate of Research, but nothing seems to fit… For the time being I am just trying to be still, learn and grow as an ER nurse until I find out what that is.


I am trying to tackle boredom. I am becoming very antsy and I am tired of my hometown. I really wish I could see or just be someplace different for a little bit. Unfourtunately, with COVID I have been really cautious and decided to just save in the hopes I’ll be able to travel one day. I have been keepng myself busy with the gym (five days a week), reviewing basic nursing content (once a week for an hour) and brushing up on my language skills (twice a week for an hour each).

I am really trying my best to stay busy, but my mind is idle which really affects my mental health. I’m not sure, I guess I’ll just blame it on COVID. That is what I miss about being in college. I was always busy and I felt productive. I still am not able to return to being a Child Life volunteer which usually keeps me busy, but becasue of the ‘VID I can’t…

That is pretty much a life update. I don’t have much going on, but this is just snapshot of where my mind is right now. 2021 has been off to a hopeless start, but I am just trying to push through like most people. Thanks for reading!



  1. Congrats on making it this far as a new nurse. I heard that the first year is the hardest, and often nurses move around to different hospitals/units before they find one they like. I think it’s very normal to feel bored/stuck/uncertain of things. It’s also a big life change so congrats adjusting to these changes! I agree that peds is hard. Tbh I thought I wanted to be a peds nurse until I failed that clinical rotation so now I’m sticking with geriatrics 😂

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      1. I’m super nervous about working as a grad nurse starting this month. Last semester, I was moved to 3 different units due to COVID-19 outbreaks. I will be working at the last 2 units which I am quite nervous about. I’ve only really done night shifts and day shifts are a completely different animal. I have yet to write the NCLEX (there’s no time to study), and I also started another job on the side and am having issues with HR; still trying to sort out the mess. Fun times. 🙄

        That being said, I am super grateful to be finished school (finally!) and feel like I learn better on my own. I’m working through what seems like a gazillion modules.

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